Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Hmmm.. Things are turning somewhat brighter now... Oh ya, my apologies for my 'angsty'/depresed/sad post last nite, I was really on the verge of depression last nite with all my stress coming in.. Things are more cleared up today so I'm fine.. Thx for ur encourgament(s), Khaiboon and kian hong.. Nvrtheless, I am still kinda worried abt things now, cos everything is still like different and all...
Band was still alrite this morning, except sean kept harping on sun peng's existence by constantly shouting 'Sun Peng!' at me to irritate me... But other than that, everything was as per normal... oh ya, the sec 2 auditioning for SYF participation is on thursday.. I am really worried cos i am afraid i can't make the mark and I haf to take the audition nxt week.. seriously, i suck soo much in eupho playing until, umm... choco ice cream is a nice to eat wif onion rings and i seriously dunno wat i am talking about but i noe wat i meant so good... Jiunn Lin obviously has a higher chance to be in the competition but I am sufficiently worried for Bob cos firstly, I can't play those quaver notes at a high range of high fs and Gs so therefore Bob can't too and Bob can't tongue his notes so i am just worried for him in a sense... Haiz..
And after band, for the first time ever, kun won said bye to me.. I mean its not very weird or not but it's just reminiscing the feeling of 2 yrs back when we were still young and immature.. Now i am the only one that is young and immature now... Some people just have to grow and Kun won and marcus and jianyi did... Sad to say, that's probably why they are sort of 'leaving' me now, as in we aren't that close like we used to last yr or even 2 yrs back anymore.. I am really very very sad, cos i am seriously reflecting on how i spent my past 2 yrs happily and its back to reality now...
Yes, i can't stop them frm growing up and maturing to young fine gentleman can I? Even if i wanted to, they themselves wanna get away frm the immature child that sings so much even tho his voice suck like the brown solids that oozes out from everyone's anuses at least once every 2 days rite? It's like they are delibrating drifting away frm me - Kun won's now laughing at my immaturity and my naivety and moved on with life with the jianyang clique in his class with hurwitz and all.. Marcus is resisting me in some sense cos he finally realised where he belong - wif ben chow and the 2O cool-ies... Jianyi ain't really moving off to new cliques in his class but he's sorta changing his immature company which = replacing me with wei shi... i tink he's kinda sick of me and all... People change don't they? It's just that some people change more quickly than the others...
So our timetable was out and to our horrors, Laurang is teaching us English language for the whole year. God. Pharq! But she is still blur and all.. And we are supposed to write and 1.2k-1.5k essay like on this week that is so freaking hard... Sigh... But fortunately, we only haf 5 periods of Laurang each week.. Phew...
Then we had maths cos our chemistry teacher mr. liew was absent on the first day of lessons = non-bio pple will be released at 1.30 sharp! Yippee! we had the diagnostic test thingy and our PRC sun peng unleashed his hidden talent as a mathematician, with a higher probability to trash ah zek and be on par wif wei quan... He explained the answer in chinese though but i tink he's still quite shuai.. except he has the image thing - the PRC nerdy image cos he's like 1.75m tall (that's wat he said) and so his pants were quite high up his waist and all, but at least he looks more normal den the other 2 prcs frm 3M which they were their pants more high up.. eww... and he has the kinda blur/cheena image thingy... in other words, he just hasnt blend in wif us - the typical singaporeans yet... that might be good/bad, but i still haven manage to adapt the feelin of havin a prc in my class...
So recess was ok, had exreta mee wif the usual company and jianyi tried out the roti prata.. quite nice (i stole a bite frm him)... den went to 3O for some socialising.. haha.. jy is still so shuai as b4 with his new brad pitt hairstyle.. lolz.. and taiboon's sitting beside chin seng in class!!!!! and after tt we had BSP wif yang wz... and benchow and taiboon came to our class and i immediately sat with them cos i need to absorb some of 3O's eliteness...lol.. oh ya and the 3 good things abt BSP and 3 bad things abt BSP:
Good: 1. YangWZ is teaching us.
Good: 2. BSP-ians are exempted frm Higher Chinese EOY exams
Good: 3. BSP-ians are exempted frm taking HCF O-lvls...
Bad: 1. YangWZ is teaching us
Bad: 2. We are going to both the rural areas to 'zhong4 tian2' and city area to be niaoed by the chinese
Bad: 3. We still have to take term tests and a Chinese MRP-like assignment as our EOY grade
Oh ya and thruout the lesson (2 periods), ben chow was half slping cos firstly YangWZ was kinda off topic and all and ben was doing CNY preps and dint haf enuff sleep so i sorta empathise wif him... and taiboon went off halfway during the lesson and nvr came back! dunno y and how he did that but he just did it! lol... but BSP is going to be fun! and i am relieved that i dint take the scholarship cos they told me that only scholarship holders MUST take chinese history in JC and tt sux! lol...
Then physics was half ok cos firstly i always disliked tan hock chye cos he was our IRS mentor in sec 1 and he's slacky and lazy n all so i dint really haf a good impression of him... and the lesson was ok cos we only went thru the scheme of work and i was blown away.. i'll flunk term one cos the focus is on optics and light (die!) and term2 will be dead as well cos i can't take kinematics (die! die!) and term 3 has MORE kinematics (die!die!die!)... sad life dude
den we had the party thing and we slacked for one hr and it was lunch break... den letchmi called for those non-bio pple for a meeting of where can the non-bios can go during bio periods and i went home and arrived at abt 3++... rewatch scary movie 3 for a while and i slept...
oh ya, i just read the horoscope section frm my new bought lime! mag and here goes:
SAGITTARIUS
With the planet of ego (true), Mars, in Sagittarius until early Feb, you are in a period of intense review. (god can they get more truer than this?) As personal questions you haven't considered for ages surface, you must also stand your ground in a variety of settings. Both force you to reflect on your values, your goals and how you organise your life. In some cases, your;e happy abt things, but in tohers u realise serious improvement or dramatic change is vital. This is good timing, since when circumstances demand exactly that, you're ready..
so if this is accurate, which i tink it is, i'll bid marcus, kun won and jianyi goodbye.. nice 2 noe u guys as frenz and thks so much for always being there for me in the past 2 yrs.. i really appreciate it.. :'(
Signing off,
KX
1/04/2005 07:44:00 PM
