Sunday, July 10, 2005
hmm.. i have this -hate-my-voice- perception again.. my tone really really sux lah.. *can imagine jianyi, sua and jeffrey nodding their heads* but watevr, its just really different lah.. dunno how to explain.. maybe its bcos i aint singing songs that suit my range... cos now wif the proj superstar fever going on, it roused my passion for chinese music and now i sing like 'piano', 'jiangnan' and 'forever love' and its like quite high but not that high u see.. like the chorus uses my high registers and my range aint developed so sounds very bad.. but i can stop my temptation to sing and shit lah.. now i have this dream, to sing a song that no one can imitate - not the tone nor range or the feeling.. i am still searching for this song that i can feel.. i am still singing like a person that can hit the notes but not empathised with the lyrics of the song.. that doesnt make me a singer, but an imitator lah.. so my goal for now is to be a singer, and feel songs while i sing em' and sing 'em nice and with less strained tone and crap...
shit lah.. and now i am caught in this dilemma cos VE nxt wk is on thurs 4.30-6.30 and i dun want to miss it cos i wanna perfect my tone and expression for the 'stopping by woods on a snowy evening'.. i've gotten all the notes rite liao and just needa work on it.. but i haf third lang.. and i've skipped it last week and if i shld skip it this wk again, my parents will haf this impression that other 'less impt' stuff are taking over priority of my jap lang, in which i have less and less passion for it as the term goes by.. haii..
another issue that's seriously bothering me is my handphone bills.. i've been going bill bust since last november for 8 consecutive mths and this mth i bust for the calls and smses section so my parents quite pissed with my high consumption lah.. then its like my dad wans me to offer alternative or mtds to solve this problem.. then i suddenly have this vision as if my phone consumption = oil consumption in US.. then i was like thinking of instead of reducing my phone sms usage (cos its like my recreation to sms when i am bored), why not think of solutions to accomodate my high consumption.. so in my mind, i was like thinking, 'aiya, cant u just upgrade my plan to sth like 500 free smses so there won't be a problem of bill bust?' but sigh, i dint voice it out cos 8 other relatives are sitting on the same table as we were during dinner...
sigh... omgomg.. its soo cool lah.. sua and i are swooning over derrick now.. he's just damn zai in singing and soooo cute!! wahaha.. hopes this crazy thing its only between me and sua.. or else if someone else likes him too, then i will like him less.. he sooo rox! haha... my idol/superstar and sua's bf... lol lame..
anywayy with that above para that lightened me up, i shall be good and go do geog wksheet and perhaps SMRP...
Signing off,
KX
7/10/2005 08:24:00 PM
