Thursday, March 03, 2005
bahh... i'm seriously kinda sad now... of this change and evrything... not of the BS of cos - i lurve BS life! loll... it's abt friends and all this time..oh ya. btw Daniel is one of our school's top scholar!!! wah laoz... 10 A1s and 1 A2s! beat that... (if you were on of those 11 RGSians and 8 RIans...) knvm, i'm so happy for him, but i dun tink he felt my happiness.. haha.. jkjk.. so at that nite (monday), i just called him and we talked for abt an hr lor.. haha, we are still like 'flirting' wif one another and talking alot of crap lar.. but i really missed him alot lor.. cos he's still damn funny and brotherish... so i still like him alot... NOT CRUSH OKK!!!..then oscar's award started, and i watched with yam and sua, while talking on the phone with my best friend sean... ahha, very fun lar he.. nvr fail to make me laff or zibei or ego... loll... wonder how long can we stay like that.. more abt that later... haha oscar quite nice... but kinda sian in the middle part so switch off tv and sleepz... btw, i had my jap test on that day as well, quite confident that i can get an a2 or sth... haha.. cos i, for some reason, dint sleep during the test at all! loll wat an achievement lor.. it's like i always sleep in the first half of jap lesson, then after the break i suddenly kana energised and everything.. strange...okok tuesday. dismissed at 1120. take the chance to improve my social life.. so yam and ash asked me out to westmall for movie.. then i haven give reply.. then during chinese lesson, jy smsed me abt watching a movie as well and i replied yes and told ash and yam abt the outing lor.. and then jeffrey also go and weishi too... and after waiting for jy to finish his MOCK UN test thingo, and waiting for jeffrey and I to get changed in BS, we asked sun peng and weibin along and we zao4 to westmall for movie!.. on the way to the bus stop, daniel called me and asked me if i was in school and i said yea and he said that he and alfred were at the canteen... then i was like freakin excited cos i haven toked to him in person for a long time, and on my way to the canteen, i met khaiboon and the both of us went to meet them and i talked to them for a while like 3mins? haha... then daniel and alfred were like shocked that i am going thru puberty as seen frm my pimples and my low voice.. daniel was like asking, 'khee xuan, do you have sore throat?? haf anot?' in disbelief loll.. but good times nvr last and i ran back to the bus stop with the company and went to westmall..
then we went to westmall's KFC and spent a whole hr there lor.. cos jy ate like 2 popcorn chicken and cheese fries, and weibin actually managed to finish a zinger meal and 2 pc chicken meal by himself lor.. it's like wth.. he can eat so much yet he aint 3/4 of the size of weishi/jeffrey/kaimeng... loll k dun niao... then we decide to watch hide and seek, cos i didnt want to watch moving castle and there was no time to watch the show at 2.50, and jy said that white noise not nice so oso nvr watch.. so the last resort was to watch hide and seek larz... haha, a bad choice indeed... the show really sucked a lot... everyone hated it.. except jeffrey of cos... bleargh.. shld've listened to daniel and not watch that movie.. anywayy, we shopped a lil and went off after that... that nite, sua took my phone and smsed something like, 'do you know that i love you for a very long time?' to daniel! and i was like damn shocked and angry cos he keeps saying that i have a crush on daniel, sean, zhi hui, adeline, jijo and all.. it's like hello? i dun haf a crush on any of them!!! wtf!! *siheng's face*... no pt explaining... let sua say watever he wants to.. daniel will always be my bro and sean will be my best friend... jijo, who's he? k, ytd and today got nth much reflective lar... so i'm going to reflect abt my current friendship and my circle of company... firstly. jianyi. i'm kinda doing nth to salvage our already drifting friendship... it's like i'm just letting go and none of us are trying to cling onto it, which is somehow a good thing. yep, he has his circle of friends too - sng, melwan, weishi... ... and somehow i'm changing my circle of company too... i wouldn't say that we are that close, but i'd rather mingle with nice people like yam, ashley, jy than with what i think as irritating and lame company i used to have.. the structure is somehow like adjusted? i like to be with jy, yam, ashley cos they r fun in a way, and also with sua, taiboon and ben cos they are damn hilarious... it's like i enjoy being in a company of 2 different likes... the former company will like hang out in sports shops and the latter will prolly hang out in gifts/CDs shops... but i still like them lar cos they are lots of fun.. i ain't sure if jy or yam treats me as one of their closer friends lar, but at least i'm kinda happy that i can still like hang out wif them or sth... watever lar.. they dun hate me then fine liao... i am not that despo to make them like me... see how it goes in future lar... need time to see the insides of one another first... haha... budden its like nowadays i see jianyi in class, i just treat him like a stranger... i just dunno why... its like i have this protective shield arnd me to keep me away from his company, not exactly him... it's somehow like a test ofour friendship and the outlook is bleak. or perhaps he might be too preoccupied with other stuff and mightn't even realise my presence... cos its like we arent linked in anyway now.. i dun take bio, i dun take SMP, i aint in council, i am like almost an opposite of wat he does and all so there's almost no chance for us to mingle arnd and chat or anything... and the most impt thing is that we dun take the initiative to.. i see him, if i feel happy, i'd say hi and walk off. or else i'll just walk past him as if i was walking past mozzie or bryan.. just plain dao.... its like kinda weird and awkward cos we arent that close now... its a mutual feeling actually and i wonder if we shld continue this shield thingo or at least attempt to reconnect as friends once more... both suits me fine actually... i suddenly have no preference at all cos i realised that wats meant to be will be... nth can change that. oh ya, my eupho playing. how exciting.. there's this tutor thingo on sat morning, hope i can really improve on my tone and everything.. i sorta imprved and deprved in every aspect.. cant really explain.. all of my blog readers shldnt be interested to know abt it. so heck. haha.. oh ya, today laurang toked to us abt giftedness and everything... *in ego mode*.. haha she said (not meant) that 'Khee Xuan is gifted in singing and he likes what he's doing.' loll.. i am like damn happy and all but i dun tink she meant it lar... i'm sure jeffrey, sua also strongly disagree that... wateverz.... let me indulge and engulf myself in this fantasy where i think i really can sing well.... leave me at that place please... loll... i tink daniel is now damn annoyed by me cos 'i' (sua yu) sent the stupid msg, and i am like desperately trying to meet him and everything cos i haven seen him for a long time.. it's like i'm dying to meet my fave senior and all, and even tho he claims that i am his 'fave junior', he mightn't mean that or feel the sense of sibling-likeness as much as i do.. watver lar.. glad that he's in band so in a few mths time i can get to tok to him every monday and all lor... blah... boarding school life now is somewhat like a standstill cos its damn boring.. then its like i am dying to call and chat with people like sean or daniel but i tink they r like annoyed or pissed off with my consistent irritation lorz... sigh dunno wat to do, or who to call... jianyi? hmm... mayb lar... talking thru phone is seriously damn fun i guess, better than smsing and msning cos you get to express ur pt much faster and it feels nice to hear my friend's voice, like he's right in front to talk and everything.... can't help lar, i am so chatty and talkative wat... loll, this is such a boring post but i dun care lar.. free bio period now watz... so sian.. *yawn*.. band later... zibei time is here!signing off,KX
3/03/2005 11:11:00 AM
