Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Hmm.. CNY Eve celebrations in school.. it's seriously damn sian.. even with darrell and jeffrey and tingwei and nigel at my side sitting, but the programme and acoustics ruined everything... Haha... It's really unsustainable interesting, I think lam poh ling must be crying now cos everyone was so unenthu during the singing session!... and i hate my voice more cos my range doesn't suit the 'he xin nian' range.. its too high and low in any octave i can sing... bleargh..
Oh ya... then after CO performance, the curtain actually ripped in front of Mr. Hon's eyes!!! haha i was like shocked cos the tear was damn obvious lor.. haha damn funny and all... the repair shld be damn ex.. but nvrmindz... oh ya, and the students frm the internation school are sooo poor thing.. cos they sang this korean song thingo, and the soloist started off pitch totally.. cos i dun tink she could hear herself and started one clash note above the actual piano music... sad... she's also crying now... basically the whole event unfortunately is screwed up lar.. so sad...
Yea, then took bus back to rosyth lor.. with zhang and lerong.. oh ya, met terence waiting outside the bandrm after the whole event.. its like nowadays i never tok to terence anymore.. i just quietly practice the eupho mysef... its always kun won that toks to terence.. i am like segregated again... its not just today, its like since last last week.. not saying that i adore terence's company.. but its just so freaking sian and depressing to be alone all the time... its like if the barbas in charmed were to killl me, he'd use my fear of loneliness to hurt me.. and it sucks... i can almost feel that death is calling me, figuratively that is... bleargh whatever.. kun won is too qiang in his euphonium skills... i am just yet another sidekick. or maybe less significant than that.. what makes me think that I am so special?
back to rosyth! it's like i see that school everyday and i just turn my head towards my right now at this moment and I can see the canteen... Nothing much significant seriously.. it's just meeting those 'old' 'friends'.. saw bingwen and the other RIans.. Hmm.. I finally knew the reason why i found yongquan so familiar.. cos he look so much like bingwen.. kinda short and bespectacled with that cute/funny face thingo... but yongquan is friendlier la... bingwen is soo much quieter than usual.. cos mayb its bcos they despise HCIans or we've lost contact for so long until we have nth to tok abt..
then stone there for a while and maolin came and we talked lor.. hmm.. maolin looks sooo much skinnier now cos his face is soo much sharper now... then he's like the only RI-ian that talks to me like normally.. the rest just dao me.. mayb that's the reason why i dint go for teacher's day last yr... its is at that particular place where my fear is more prominent....
then siti and salima and jane and rachel came! haha i missed siti so much! then we hugged and its like she's so fashionable now.. she looks real pretty in her like maroon shirt and jeans.. very nice... mayb i really forgot abt her since dunno when la.. but she's like still so fun and all... except that she's so quiet today cos she says that she's so tired but i tink she's still fun and all and we still talk so its cool! haha... then salima looks so beautiful too in her cheongsam thingo and high heels.. she has long hair till her shoulders... haha nice change! haha and we still talk alot like always and alll.. AJ is still as fun as ever.. except that i am abt as tall as her now! yippee..
but we clumped together with jon heng and a few other people and talk for like one hr then they decided to go shopping but i was too tired so i went home and slept until 5 and went for my reunion dinner.. nth much.. the fake abalone tastes nicer than the real one hahaha....
hmmm.. waiting for rat race to start... watched it once only... may the CNY mark a change in my life... sth to turn myself into wat i yearn to be or achieve.. please.
Signing off,
KX
2/08/2005 09:11:00 PM
